“Once the plane landed in Portland, Emerson allegedly told police officers that he hadn’t slept in 40 hours and believed he was experiencing a nervous breakdown. The complaint says he also spoke to them about using psychedelic mushrooms for the first time, along with his recent struggles with depression. ‘I pulled both emergency shut off handles because I thought I was dreaming and I just wanna wake up.'” As we learn more about the scary and weird story about the off-duty pilot who tried to crash an SFO bound flight, it just gets scarier and weirder. ‘I’m not okay’: Pilots allege terrifying struggle in cockpit of SFO flight.